Fated

Somewhere behind
My heart stopped beating
Without forewarning

Somewhere in time
I left my feeling
Left my mourning

I would die if I could
I would
But I’m fated

I would cry if I could
I would
But I’m jaded

Not unaware
Physically there

Somewhere inside
My mind stopped seeking
Stopped believing

Somehow I find
Myself critiquing
The mess I’m leaving

I would scream if I could
I would
But I’m breathless

I would dream if I could
I would
But I’m restless

Not in denial
Just conscious on trial

Sometime I’ll try
To restart bleeding
Restart feeling

Sometime I might
Wish I were needing
Love’s appealing

I would stray if I could
I would
But I’m rope-tied

I would pray if I could
I would
But my hope’s died

Not in a trance
Merely dead in advance